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[28 Mar 2005|04:50pm]

If you don't like it then hey fuck you.
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[05 Nov 2004|04:16pm]
i hate headaches.
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[04 Nov 2004|04:36pm]
What has been "up" lately:
. party saturday got raided by cops, lame .
. halloween was sweet, 'metal shows'..haha .
. waxed my eyebrows, felt good .
. adventure with amber with creeps .
. 'lesbians for four years, hate penis! ' .
. missed lauren & courtney .
. got crazy to hip hop in brians truck .
. homegirl was in jail for stealing .
. bailed .
. got an ear infection .
. tony and i watched movies together .
. ate watermelon .
. hated the fact that i was on my '.' .
. paid bills .
. visited friends .
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[25 Oct 2004|11:31pm]
Absolutly nothing new, besides alot of drama and a new dog named drama. Umm, just alot of parties and alcohol and drugs. That's about all that's going on. I want to move out of this state, soon.

Yep. I love you.
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[16 Oct 2004|11:46am]
ew i hate sleezy ass girls who try to get in my boyfriends pants.

A. you look like a fucking crack addict.
B. your anorexic and flaunt it.
C. no one really likes you, they just fuck you for a fuck.

A. you have stupid hair.
B. you aren't 'indie' so quit trying so hard, you know nothing about it. fucker.
C. you have herpes

A. youre fat
B. you also have STDS
C. youre uglier than my fucking asshole.
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[11 Oct 2004|01:35pm]
brian's birthday party was fucking insane, i made alot of new friends and that rarely ever happens. now that i have my own house everyone wants to hang out with me, i don't like that very much. everytime people come over i just go in my room and hang out with tony. oh well. suck it. i can drink more rum than you can.
elimidate is on.
im listening to azure ray for the first time in forever, i love her voice. alot of things are changing, i can totally tell.
i keep having dreams about last year, i can't even began to come to a conclusion why. but i wake up terribly sad and i don't know what to do with myself. there is a point when you realize, you love someone, but you aren't in love with them. you just wish they were in your life, or atleast you knew they were doing okay. losing connections with someone is harsh, especailly when they were someone you cared so much about. you will never read this, but i hope youre doing okay and i hope things in your life are going good.
the thing is, i am in love with someone. there is nothing better than sitting outside on the steps and being in his arms talking about the most random things. looking up at the cloudy sky and just realizing that life is so beautiful and that things are good.
i love going to sleep at night, being able to kiss him and being able to say goodnight to my best friend who's in the other bedroom.
waking up with people you care about is the greatest thing in the world.
jay had his daughter over yesterday, and she's the most adorable little girl i have ever seen in my life. we locked tony out of the house together and it was fun. i love little kids.
we all made dinner last night, like a family. listened to some hip hop. did some pills. and went to sleep. i am so greatful to have all of these amazing people in my life. i know there's something missing and that's my relationship with God that I gave up along time ago, but im not too sure what to do with that one. i'll eventually figure things out with myself.
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[11 Oct 2004|12:56pm]


He sucked at life anyways.
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if this means something to you, you mean something to me. [07 Oct 2004|07:16pm]
Passed out on the overpass
Sunday best and broken glass
Broken down from the bikes and bars
Suspended like spirits over speeding cars
You and me were kings over the parkway tonight
And tonight will go on forever while we
Walk around this town like we own the streets
And stay awake through summer like we own the heat

"Everybody wake up"
(Wake up)
"It's time to get down."
(Everybody wake up, it's time to get down)
And when I pass the bottle back to Pete
on the overpass tonight, I bet we laugh
I'm gonna stay eighteen forever
(Cut me open)
So we can stay like this forever
(Sun poisoned)
And we'll never miss a party
(This offer stands forever)
'Cause we keep them going constantly

And we'll never have to listen
(New haircut)
To anyone about anything

(New bracelet)
'Cause it's all been done and it's all been said
We're the coolest kids and we take what we can get
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[07 Oct 2004|10:02am]
i am so stoked on tomorrow.
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do it! [06 Oct 2004|12:41pm]
1. Go out with me?
2. Give me your number?
3. Have sex with me?
4. Let me kiss you?
5. Watch a movie with me...even a really sappy one?
6. Let me take you out to dinner?
7. Drive me somewhere/anywhere?
8. Take a shower with me?
9. Be my GF/BF?
10. Have a fling with me?
11. Listen to me if I called you crying even if you were out with all of your friends?
12. Buy me a drink if i didn't have money?
13. Take me home for the night?
14. Would you let me sleep in your bed?
15. Sing car karaoke with me?
16. Sit in the doctors office with me because I didn't want to go alone?
17. Re-post this for me to answer your questions?
18. Let me give you a piggyback ride?
19. Come pick me up at 3 am because my car ran out of gas in the middle of nowhere?
20. Make me something really yummy to eat?
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[06 Oct 2004|09:09am]
i feel as if im just sitting here, watching the clock tick tock tick tock. waiting for him to arrive so i can finally feel complete again. it's weird going to bed without the person that you wish was there. i am happy to realize that last year is not repeating itself again; which was what i am truely terrified of.

sometimes i wish my insomnia would knock on my door again; because i truely miss writing at 7 in the morning while sipping on my mountain dew waiting for my ride for school to arrive, except we would never go. we'd go look at puppies and always say 'we'll buy this one, this one is totally ours forever'. or drive to st augustine and go to the fort. we'd play super hero and he'd stand on the tip top edge of the fort while i'd yell at him to get off to save me from the killer drunken pirates.

when you never sleep, there is so much more that you notice about the world that you never got to notice before. you get to watch mother nature do her job from the end of the night til the break of dawn, all by yourself. you can hear the cracks and squeaks in your house and investigate what they were. it's all just a dream inside your head, one day you'll wakeup and be four again, laying in your small bed you used to sleep in as a kid. everything will be the same. repeated.

light a cigarette.
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[05 Oct 2004|01:54pm]
I feel like complete shit, thanks dot for visiting me on the week I didn't want you here. Whatever. Im going to go call tony because he's the only one who will make me feel better.
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[04 Oct 2004|01:42pm]
Hi, Okay hey. This is for president bush and his little dick sucking partner. I hope you both get beat the fuck out of you by Jesus and satan eventually finds you and lights his cigarette with your burning faces.

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[02 Oct 2004|11:16am]
I'll be the grapes fermented, bottled, and served with the table set. In my finest suit, like a perfect gentleman. I'll be the fire escape that's bolted to the acient brick where you will sit and contemplate your day. I'll be the waterwings that save you if you start drowning in an open tab when your judgement's on the brink. I'll be the phonograph that plays your favorite albms back as you're lying here drifting off to sleep. I'll be the platform shoes and undo what heredity's done to you: you won't have to strain to look into my eyes. I'll be your winter coat buttoned and zipped straight to the throat with the collar up so you won't catch cold. I want to take you far from the cynics in this town and kiss you on the mouth. We'll cut our bodies free from the teathers of this scene, start a brand new colony where everything will change. We'll give ourselves new names (identities erased). The sun will heat the ground under our bare feet in this brand new colony. Everything will change.
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[30 Sep 2004|09:13pm]
Im frustrated. Im lonely. I want to cry.

The two things I want right now, I can't have. Therefore, Im just ..blah.
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[30 Sep 2004|03:19pm]
[ mood | horny ]

I think Im addicted to sex, if that's possible. But only with one person, so it's all good in the hood.

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[28 Sep 2004|12:53pm]
so, michelle is still in wisconsin, and i miss her. ::sadface::
but here in a few days, i will be with her (and brian) and everything will be great.
im so excited!!!
but in two days, im stalking anti-flag all around columbus. thats right. im stalking those bitches!
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[23 Sep 2004|12:27pm]
im in wisconsin, haha.
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[21 Sep 2004|11:42pm]
How does it feel to know you're everything I need
The butterflies in my stomach; they could bring me to my knees
How does it feel to know you're everything I want
I've got a hard time saying this; so I'll sing it in a song

Oh I adore the way you carry yourself
With the grace of a thousand angels overhead
I love the way the galaxy starts to melt
When we become one

How does it feel
How does it feel when we get locked into a stare?
Please don't come looking for me; when I get lost in the mess of your hair
How do you feel when everything you've known; gets thrown aside
Never fear, my dear, 'cause we have nothing left to hide

Oh I adore the way you carry yourself
With the grace of a thousand angels overhead
I love the way the galaxy starts to melt

Hold on to me girl
If you feel your grip getting loose; just know that I'm right next to you
Hold on to me girl
If you feel your grip getting loose
Just know that I won't let you down

Well, I'm ready ...Well, I'm ready
I am ready
To run away with you
Are you ready?...Are you ready? ...Are you ready?
To run away with me

Pack your things we can leave today
Pack your things we can leave today
Say our goodbyes and get on the train
Say goodbye
Just you and I in the sweet unknown
We can just call each other our home

If I had to choose a way to die; it'd be -with you-
In a goosebump infested embrace
With my overanxious hands cupping your face
In a goosebump infested embrace
With my overanxious hands cupping your cherub face

How does it feel?
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[21 Sep 2004|11:23pm]
[ mood | shitfaced ]

im sitting here listening to siouxsie and the banshees...im so stoned right now it isn't even funny. im about to pass out. things were weird tonight, you weren't here to kiss me all the time, laugh with me, and i couldn't drag you to bed. sleeping alone tonight is going to suck horribly.

i get the chills from him, i cannot wait until he moves down here.

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